Rejection – It Hurts
This amazing, beautiful, magical event happened this week: new life. Two days ago, my lovely sister emptied herself of the life she gently carried for nine months and Ethan James graced the world with his presence. And it was as breathtaking, staggeringly beautiful as I imagined.
This precious life, a little smushed, but all together healthy and as perfect as we could imagine, even in that moment, I see the sin of my heart: anger in the rejection.
The specifics don’t really matter, but this week I encountered rejection at nearly every turn. Even in the midst of so much family, friends, and work, loneliness seemed to grab a hold of my heart like a drowning soul clinging to a life preserver in the middle of a vast sea. This ocean of doubt surrounded on more than one occasion, and I caught myself turning to anger, raging against those who chose against me. Those who chose good and healthy and lovely things, but didn’t choose me. Ouch.
This week I found myself returning to Matthew 27, to Golgotha, the scene of the crucifixion.
“Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?”
“And about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?”that is, ‘My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?’” (Matthew 27:46, ESV)
This rejection I feel, this shame I carry, Jesus already took it. This is only the SHADOW of the valley of death. The rejection I feel by those around me is only the shadow. Jesus took the rejection reserved for me. God rejected the Son, so that I wouldn’t have to be rejected by Him. I have the lover of my soul at hand; I have the only one I need to fill me.
So in this midst of rejection and forsakenness by those I love, I run to the cross to behold the Son. It’s easier written than done; each day has been a fight to behold grace. As I’ve peered inward this week to sort through this ugly heart, I’ve prayed to receive grace when I feel my cup is full of bitterness.
Maybe you are at a similar place? Feeling the shame and pain of rejection by those around you? Be encouraged, friend. You are not alone. In the midst of his final moments, Christ received the rejection reserved for you. He understands those emotions. He receives you and your bitter cup.
Run to the cross and behold the rejection Christ received for you; receive grace. Receive crucifixion for resurrection awaits.